is it all in my head?

I won't find out yet for another week (minimum) whether or not I'm actually pregnant but I do want to jot down a few things in case I am (or not) for future reference.

A few days ago I noticed that I lost my appetite. Granted, it could be linked to all of the emotions I begin to feel just before school starts but I have to mention it because I am ALWAYS hungry. I eat or snack every 4 hours and I get "hangry" if I don't stuff my face in frequent intervals. Every morning I wake up starving but for a few days last week I just wasn't hungry during the day or night. I forced myself to eat anyway and I noticed that bananas were the only things my body wanted--I could eat 3 or 4 throughout the course of the day. 

That part has tapered off now and I am beginning to feel slightly nauseous. It's not very strong but there's just an occasional gross feeling that comes over me. For example, yesterday I couldn't finish the eggs I made for breakfast (again, weird b/c I love breakfast) but it was something about the smell that was grossing me out.

However, Saturday in the very early morning I began to feel a hint of the uterus feeling that rolls around before I get my period, so who knows. 

I did some research about possible reasons for such a long high estrogen and +LH reading on the ovulation kits--it could be something called Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS). It causes your hormones to be out of balance which is what could lead to painful periods, inability to conceive, acne, and facial hair! There were other symptoms but these are ones I'm personally experiencing. So if I have PCOS then I was likely not ovulating or not really for as long as the test indicated, etc.

Maybe I'm looking into this a bit too deeply but I just want to jot it all down for the record. But to give myself more credit, I have always been in tune with my body and I notice slight changes in myself. Interestingly enough, I also have the strange ability to notice a change in behavior in my pups and very slight changes in appearance in people that astounds even them (hair trims, new shirt, different shoes) that I don't actually make a note to remember but I just can automatically detect a change. Skills I can't bank on but nonetheless funny and noteworthy.

In the end, if I'm not pregnant, then D and I will take a break from this whole TTC thing. So much sex, lots of eager waiting, raising your hopes and becoming slightly neurotic....it's all a little too intense and I have an upcoming school year to focus on. Also, I will definitely be proceeding with my application to the Ed.D. program and baby-making will be put on hold for a good 3-5 years. That seems reasonable to me.

-- g